Facing Our Demons…and Kicking Ass.

Super cool photo of your demons.

This was not going to be the original title, but it needed to be said.  How often have you actually named your demon?  I am not talking about a freaky version of Rumpelstiltskin where a tiny man dances around the fire saying his name loudly in a song that your hand-maiden can hear in order to destroy him…way to go Rumple, nope.  Not that kind of naming.  No.  This kind is actually way worse.

The scariest quest I ever completed was the journey into my deepest darkest fears.  The time that I sat on the couch and knew that without hope, of which I had very little, and faith, of which I still had a small amount left, that if I lost those two things, I would not be able to come out on the other side of this…maybe ever.  Let me be real about it.  It was not suicide, it was immense and total desperation.  It was depression that at such a young age, disease starting trying to destroy my body.

Now with disease comes an entire army of demons.  The likes of which normal people might face one at a time.  However, with me, it was the Battle of the 5 Armies and I wasn’t sure if the Elves were going to fight for me…or not.  << see that scary part in the beginning if you love Tolkien like I do, but stay for the battle.  It’s only a minute but it illustrates my point perfectly.

So the orcs, my demons, I had to name.  I was afraid of living a life of pain, and I knew it.  All of a sudden the Elves catapulted over the humans to fight the impending doom.  In reality, that didn’t happen.  I had to rise up and make a plan.  A plan that I knew would not bring me instant gratification, and a plan that I knew was going to be hard.  Like throwing the ring into Mount Doom hard.  So what did I do?

I got still.  And I said a prayer.

You can meditate, talk to your higher power, write about it, but speak it into existence.  Ask for it.  Seriously.  Men fighting battles always say a battle cry to rally the troops.  We’ve seen that time and time again.  RALLY your TROOPS. 

I made a plan.

Let’s say that you are dealing with anxiety.  When does it happen?  What are your triggers?  Do you know what causes you to spiral into that head space where all the voices are going off at once?  Write it down.  Use a focus word or mantra like this “I am breathing in.  I am breathing out.  I am safe.  I am whole.  I am not afraid. I am in control of my thoughts.”

I realized that I could control my thoughts.

This was a huge part of healing.  As I started to take back control of my Head, everything else started falling into place.  Did this process happen overnight?  No.  But I had a great and powerful plan of journaling my way back to what I truly wanted to feel like, and it was working.

I got really clear on my inner most desires, feelings, and what I did NOT want in my life.

It’s amazing how boundaries work.  One day, after a particularly amazing Yoga session, a “friend” called me to vent yet again.  Only this time, everything that was wrong in her life somehow became my fault because I suggested that I could help her no more and that perhaps therapy was needed.  Never heard from her again.  I was not important enough when I wanted to do fun things like go to yoga, or go out and enjoy dinner without hearing the same exact story.  Every. Single.  Time.  I was ready to grow and change and move forward.  She, and a few others like her, were not.

I made self-care first, not second, to ANY excuses.

This one is also powerful because if you make a commitment to your health and well-being, honor it or one day, quite frankly, you might not be here.  Too many people were flipping out, stressed out, and over the profession I was in.  They always stayed late, and got there early.  They said they couldn’t make yoga because of a “work” thing.  Or it was raining.  Or they were tired.  <<< pick your poison.  Excuses are a type of demon that want you to fail, so my friends, put up the good fight.  Send in Legolas and do the work here. 

I hope this helps you see that growth, in any form, is not an overnight process.  I recently pissed off a person as I mentioned that it was up to them, and no one else, to make their own happiness.  That is where the light comes in my friends.  You can fight these demons and win.  I believe in you.

Dedicated to my warriors in the Head|Heart|Health Club.  There is always room for you!

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Procrastination and the dreaded “resolutions”…3 tips to overcome it!

I know that at the end of each year, millions of people resolve to do better next year.   The problem is, resolve means steadfastness, and we let many things get in the way of that resolve.  Procrastination has become our safety net, trust me I know.

But what if we traded in that safety net, for true results?  What would happen?

We’d actually get things done.  We’d stop listening to fear and self-doubt.  We’d have to be accountable.  Ack.  Those things by themselves are scary.  Scary feet. Scary feet. Scary feet.  <<< Sully would approve of you being scared.

Unfortunately, if you are reading this, we have hit the grown up stage and the responsibilities that come with that are often too much for us in our heads, so we fall back on fear.  I understand.  I have been there many times.  So what changed for me?

3 tips to overcome procrastination:

  1. Create clearly defined goals…and then look to see if you can break them down even further.  In my new online community, I was talking about how to really get clear on what you want and then step back and see if it can be even more clear.  After we have created these crystal clear steps to your end result, make sure you know how realistic they are.  For example, one goal might be making more money.  Okay, so how much?  If you are on the path to millions, is that realistic right this very minute?  Maybe you can have a goal to make $100 more this pay period.  At the end of the year, you can have your big goal of making x amount of dollars.  Try not to write out that your goal is to get to the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow.
  2. Minimize the path to distractions…engage in community support.  As I was on the path to wellness, the community around me was not very supportive.  I had to change my focus as many of you have heard me say time and time again.  It actually became my most popular quote and my tag line, but I truly believe “Surround yourself with what you want to become.” << Okay, my original quote was a bit longer, but of course, I will put it at the end for you.  But let’s think about your distractions.  Write them out if you have to.  Map out your pitfalls like you are Indiana Freaking Jones and this is the Temple of Doom.  Write out snakes, those might be the people trying to bring you down.  “Why’d it have to be snakes?”  And then the booby traps, that might be the triple chocolate cake your friend ordered right in front of you.  The nerve.  Then what is going to save you from the pit?  Who or what is your rope vine that comes right as you need it?  Support.  Find that group of people who will be there for you.
  3. Get to a safe environment…whew.  After you have made it out of distraction zone, what are you going to do next?  Sticky notes.  I didn’t invent them though, but I use them.  So here are a few ways to help yourself with notes.  Get your planner ready and write in what you need to do.  Clean your desk area into one that is organized and less “Pig Pen” like.  Physically remove old to-do lists.  Streamline your tasks into today and by the end of today.  Don’t look at the overall month right now…that can be your future log.  Make certain you are holding yourself accountable or use the S.O.S. option if you are in my closed group. <<< that’s where you get to ask me for help on 1 specific thing before Thursday of each week.  It might show up as a blog post.  You never know:)

I really believe in you!  If I can do this, I know you can.  See the previous article called You Can Get Through This, because life is not a race. It’s a journey, and we are all trying to get through it the best we know how.

Here is your reminder, from me.  With much love:

If Life was Like Game of Thrones…

Hey there geeks and geekettes.  So I was minding my own business while daydreaming about Jon Snow nothing, and this thought popped into my mind.  What if life was like Game of Thrones?  I wasn’t sure where this line of thought was going to take me…so I explored it naturally.  Here are a few things that might happen if this line of reasoning were true in life:

  1. That guy who just cut you off in traffic and then made a rude gesture out the window, well, a few miles down the road, you passed his car on fire because Drogon instinctively knew the Mother of Dragons was pissed.  What? So instead of saying something rude and getting all mad, you accidentally said the command to call him under your breath.  It’s easy to utter.
  2. When that guy who sits on the Iron Throne calls you into work because Varys whispered you weren’t really using your sick days properly, you know because Varys was stalking your Instagram account and saw you out so he told everyone, you tell Varys that he has to take a message over to your bud Ramsay’s house.  Problem solved.
  3. A staff meeting is called and that one annoying co-worker, you know, the one who sneaks in late daily through the back door, never takes a day of sick leave, but can’t be found during the day, the one who shows up on “Pot Luck” day saying “Oh man, I forgot that was today!”, but eats all the food, you know that one, well, when they ask you where the meeting is, you tell them to go through that door on the right up ahead…and drat.  Someone left the moon door open.  Oops!
  4. You go to ask your boss a question, but see that fake Petyr Baelish coming out of his office and the next thing you know you are being transferred to a remote location like you came up with the idea.  What just happened?
  5. Luckily for you, while you are pondering the absurdity of this, a mysterious e-mail comes in with photos of your boss and wait, isn’t that some guy named Loras from the copy room?  Interesting.  You decide to blackmail your boss and now you have a room with a view.  Petyr is now being transferred.
  6. The CEO makes a surprise visit and is one of the most cunningly shrewd people you have ever met.  You try hard not to call him an “Angry Elf” and you feel like you’ve heard that line somewhere before, but nevertheless Tyrion took a liking to your style…especially since he somehow already knew you blackmailed the boss.  He asks you to work for him immediately.
  7. While working for your new boss, you discover someone trying to pilfer from the monthly coffee and snack collection funds.  You let him know and he tells you to assign that person to a new outpost…beyond the wall.
  8. You think your new boss drinks too much…during the day.  But you understand.  You met his sister once and she would drive you to drink as well.  You shrug and just get to the liquor store like he asked you…after all, you don’t want to be late with his breakfast.
  9. You start to feel like you are being followed, and when you look behind you, you notice a really large woman.  You think nothing of it, but decide to run around the corner anyway just to see what happens.  As you duck behind a trashcan, the large woman shouts out that she was sent to protect you.  Considering the way things have been going…she might be telling the truth, but just in case she isn’t, you snap a photo of her and post it on FB to everyone you know saying “Who is this crazy lady?”  You can’t be bothered calling the police.  Asking your social network is probably safer.

Check out this cool quiz to see who you played in this story!  Which Game of Thrones Character Are You?

Aimee’s note: these are ramblings of a writer who works with 3 dachshunds so no reference to your real life boss is actually reflected.  But always ask yourself “What would Tyrion do?”…

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Challenge accepted…

Fibromyalgia Awareness

Every once in a while you might feel like Life has marched right up to you and thrown down the gauntlet.  Poof.  The dust rises and you look her right in the eye, and you say come on bitch.  I got this.  I was having a year like this, but no more.  I made myself do a 90 day challenge on my little known supplement page called Vitalize You.  Of course, my friends all know about it, but I won’t apologize for waking up and realizing what is in the food we eat.  What is in the medicines we take, and what WAS in my vitamins.  I now am on completely all-natural NON GMO products.  It is very important for someone with autoimmune conditions.

May 12th is Fibromyalgia Awareness DAY.  One day?  Are you serious?  No, that won’t cut it.  I am going to try to talk about it more on my FB page for my blog.  So to start off with, I encourage you to read a few articles I found.  The first one was really hard for me to wrap my head around.  I hurt all the time and you are telling me to exercise.  WHY??  Even if I didn’t hurt, I am not likely to actually WANT to exercise.  Sigh.  Read Fibromyalgia Exercise Studies if you want.  I have some lovely friends who try to encourage me out of my hermit-like state.  I appreciate you all.  Because I guess comfy clothes can be worn walking.  So technically I don’t have to change…I can add that to my list.

Next, I was reading about Vitamin D Benefits and Fibromyalgia.  I am really low on Vitamin D since I have that pesky vampire-type thing going on where my skin can actually be harmed by the sun.  Go figure.  I am now on an all-natural readily available Vitamin D supplement.  Lastly, I read about this list where I pretty much had all the symptoms on it.  It was depressing for a second, and then I thought, I have had these symptoms for as long as I can remember, get over it.  Move.  Do something.  A war in my head would be like Darth Vader fighting Luke.  Obviously my symptoms are the dark side…I am not giving in!  Oh, the list is called Fibromyalgia Symptoms.

I hear the whooshing noise of the light sabers…I am screaming.  Noooooo!  What?  I am a geek.  You have whatever you want in your head.  Okay, back to the fight.  Whoosh.  That breathing mask noise is on my nerves Darth.

I leave you with this quote I have used before, and still love:

Dark Side QuoteP.S.  I do not look like Amy Farrah Fowler.

Motivational Monday…

Ahhh.  That’s more like it.  I have “New Hope” that the secret plans I have stolen can help heal me.  Okay, so I haven’t stolen any secret plans, it’s all available for those who take the time to do the research, but all the same, my motivational theme song tonight is quite epic.

While I’d love to explain more, you will have to wait two more months before I publish the results of my latest healing experiment on myself.  I’m not talking Dr. Banner or Dr. Jekyll either.  It’s far more tame…it’s just that I don’t want to even put it out there until I try it all for myself.  So here’s my motivation for this MONTH.  Repeat this.

There is no try.

You Shall Not Pass…

Do you ever wish you knew how a certain situation was going to turn out?  I know that I do.  I will sometimes say to myself “If only I had known x,y,z was going to occur, I would have done things differently.”  The problem is, I wasn’t meant to know that.  I have to live my life based on facts or gut instincts and do what I think is right.  There is not going to be a giant spotlight that comes out of the sky and points me on the right path.  Gandalf is not going to appear and do this for me:

That would be pretty awesome.  I am a geek at heart and one can hope, but for now, I make my own decisions, and am doing the best I can with the knowledge I have.  If I did not try this new path out, I would always, always wonder.  So for now, I am traveling down an unfamiliar road.  I have no scouting party, but I do have my best-friend.  Much like Frodo with his ever faithful Samwise.  It is time to announce that I am taking a sabbatical this year.  I have hinted at it in previous posts, but I am doing it.  Wish me luck folks.  The road is scary, but I must travel this way to see what happens.  I have been writing children’s stories for years, and it is past time I do something with them.  The time is now.

“Take a chance!  All life is a chance.  The man who goes farthest is generally the one who is willing to do and dare.”  ~Dale Carnegie

Take a chance