You know how you are going along and everything seems to be fine in your life until one day it’s just not. Well that was last year. I knew I was getting worse off. I knew that I was sore and in pain almost all of the time…until I realized the difference between almost all of the time and ALL of the time. It seems like such a small thing, but it’s not.
I want you to understand the difference, if you can, between writing this blog to make anyone in this world feel sorry for people like me and writing it for you to understand people like me. There is a big difference. Last week, I met someone amazing and they told me my writing moved them. To me, that is huge. I want you to feel what I feel for a moment. Not to make you feel bad, but to make you think. When I read, I expect the same. I want you to put yourself in my shoes while you are reading just as I do when I read.
Right now, there is the possibility that Epstein-Barr Virus has been in my system since I was 15 years old. It makes sense. It really does. I had a horrible case of mononucleosis. The doctor I saw today said there are any number of factors that could have triggered my Fibromyalgia, and did in fact tell me that is what I have been suffering with. He did not have any advice on how to treat it naturally; however, he said I was free to treat it as I had been doing or take one of the prescriptions (he did prefer one over the others). I have been doing some of the things on this site already as they are similar to other research to help autoimmune.
All in all, it’s kind of fuzzy right now. I find it hard to focus on a point beyond all of this, so instead, I am focusing on one day at a time.